Squid Girl World Ramblings

Hi reader! It's been a few months. Not that long. Enough time for me to completely forget I released something this year, but not enough time for me to release a new episode of Squid Girl World.. Sorry Squid Girl Enthusiasts..

It doesn't feel right for me to call this a retrospective when Squid Girl World is still something I'm actively developing and working and constantly thinking about (it actually haunts me sepia is a parasite consuming my brain HELP ME). So, we're calling it rambling.

Anyway, I just decided to reread EP 1 for the first time in a while, and I actually really enjoyed it. It's often difficult for me to reread old projects, but I finally did tonight.

I also reread EP 0 for the first time in a Really long time. I did a lot of things to forget about Episode 0 due to shame regarding it. I felt as though I’d failed as a writer by not being true to myself, and ultimately I created something bland out of fear of my heart being seen by the reader.  To be honest, it wasn't really that deep LOL. I am just going to call it a pilot, and as I'm sure we all know, pilots don't often get the vibe right.

Squid Girl World had always been intended to be an eroge series where adults with various experiences with sex and thoughts on nude bodies kind of just.. gallivanted around without a care in the world. There’s other things I want to depict in Squid Girl World too of course (as alluded to via Aseroe’s flashbacks and some things regarding Sepia and Nettle), but ultimately, it is a project where I am just having as much fun as possible.

I didn’t really have a lot of fun writing EP 0 because I was so anxious about how I’d be perceived. I don’t completely hate EP0 and it serves its purpose (getting lore across, being experimental, etc), and I think it’s just fine. Unlike EP0, I just feel like I actively did what I wanted to do when I made EP1.  

I actually wasn’t sure if I’d make EP1 public because I have so much ex Christian shame in my heart despite how much fun I was having writing it, but I did! Everyone's been really nice about it. I don't know what I expected actually. I guess some part of my brain expects like.. God to strike me down himself? Or for everyone in my friendship to suddenly convert to Christianity and chastise me? Or like.. the worst crime of all.. I write a sex scene and get made fun of LOL.

Well.. None of that happened! It makes me happy, and it evokes the feelings I want based on the thoughts I’ve received from people who’ve read it! Squid Girl World is really meant to be like.. I am bored and want to read eroge that makes me feel good on a Saturday night type thing LOL. Because well, I love shit like that. I also love post apoc. Wahoo. 

When I reread it, I was actually very surprised by it because I forgot that I somehow managed to let go of my inhibitions after all of these years and just write what I want. And I mean I’ve been dealing with inhibitions for years lol. The curse of the Church I guess. Anyway, I think I was really PUSHED to create by hosting the Menhera VN Jam. So, thank you everyone who was part of that and I hope you, dear reader, read something you liked from the jam c: .  I read a lot of things unlike other works I’ve read before and talked to a lot of devs I probably wouldn’t have spoken to otherwise.

Last part of this little ramble, I want to politely point to this, https://dominoclub.itch.io/good-writers-are-perverts. I think it’s probably better than this ‘retrospection’ LOL!

See you in EP 2! Whenever that may release!